we were talking about this the other day in our sorority house. i hadn’t read it yet then.
when i finally did today, i felt this completely rational fear that i will have neither - that i will not succeed in my personal or professional life - and that is one of my greatest fears.
in the last year or so i’ve realized increasingly that i very much so do want to have a family one day. the idea of raising children very much so terrifies me, but i’ve realized that one day i may have to sacrifice professionally for my family.
but what’s far worse than having to make difficult choices is the absence of those options. what if i never fall in love? what if i never get married? what i am unable to have children?
but these things aren’t just dependent on me. and then i can’t help but think what if i’m not smart enough? what if i’m not well-connected enough? and what if i continue to be awful at networking? what if i’m not successful enough?